msuk ke kolej matrikulasi perak.

oke!!!

saya masuk matriks.. NOTE THIS PLEASE..

OKE LAH . . saya ad di matrikulasi perak.. KMPk.. lol.. very excited with all this suddenly things happened in my life..

well you know.. i like to travel.. but its actually with my family.. not by myself.. OMG again I'M ALL ALONE!!! nOOOOOO!!!

OKE.. stop being so childish.. rite now i'm a college student.. act as one pleassseee.. LOL..

i got the offer to come here is on 4th of june.. well.. actually i check the result is on 7th of june..

 and i was like...

bes giler siot.. ahahaha.... ak mcm hape dh.. mcm org giler.. kah3..

"mak2.. amir dpt matriks... nak g ke tak ek?? ahaha

mak rse mcm mne?? nak g ke ta?? bes ta matriks?? " hahaha ap lah .. huhu.. tanye mcm2.. kah3.. pas tuh.. tbe2.. ak tringt psal IJN.. ahaha.. ak ad apply utk jd MA (medical assistant)...

dilemma... 

hahaha.. rse mcm nak bunuh je.. kah3.. erm.. but nevermind.. i dont really care bout it.. as long as i could go out from the house and start living by myself.. its not that i dislike my family.. but.. i just want to be independent with myself.. LOL.. 

and i met new friends.. a lot of friends.. 

first.. its asraf..

hahaha nme die asraf.. kih3.. ske tngk muke die.. in real life.. dlm gmbr niyh .. agak pelik skit. hahah mte die besar..

second its rahman...

haa... ni mat jambu.. hihihi.. muke die putih bersih.. hensem.. again putih... fair.. flawless..hahaha

sori man.. ak trpkse jujur.. i hate u.. hahahaha.. terancam ble dduk sblah ko.. sbb rmai prempuan tngk ko..

ahaha.. ap lah.. mcm2 ragam sebenarnye dok kat matriks.. ad yang sombong. ad yang pendiam.. ad yang terblebih ckp.. ad yang sngt popular.. hahah.. mmg sronok sngt dok kat matriks niyh.. tp ak nak knl kan sorg niyh.. huhu.. cbe teke spe.. hihihi.. 

NI DIA!!!

HAHAHA.. NI LAH.. NME DIE.. SITI MAIZURAH.. hahaha.. die lah prempuan yang ak rapat kat matriks niyh.. die special.. jap.. before that.. die awek kelate.. hahaha.. comel ta die.. kih3... suke2.. huhu.. 

alah gatal plak ak niyh.. hihihi.. 

DAN AD LAGI SORG.. NME DIE JANNAH ZAWANI.. BUT I DONT HAVE HER PICTURE.. TRYING TO SNAP ONE.. BUT SHE DONT WANT TO.. LOL.. DONT WORRY.. I'LL POST THE NEXT BLOG ALL ABOUT HER.. SPECIAL FOR YOU JAN.. HIHIHI..

:p

AND LASTLY.. gmbar sume skali...

the first from the left is.. hazzrat.. we called him yat..

second is asraf.. nest to him is hafizan..

then its rahman.. hihi.. i like to see his face.. he's to irresistable.. ahaha LOL.. just joking..

then.. the one in orange.. is ridzuan.. hhuhuhu..

they're my closest friends in this matriculation.. 

but seriously..  they just crazy like hell.. its very fun..

oke.. i need to go now.. i love you all.. 

bbye.. 

ttym..

hai.. its my birthdays eve.. LOVE IT... LOVE IT...

okay.. tomorrow is my befday.. and u know what.. i didnt remember my birthday till my mom told me.. ohh.. what a pathetic me.. 

but when i realize it.. i was like...

ohhh... tomorrow.. i'm turning 18.. omg.. 

sya bleyh kuar rmah .. haha i mean bleyh blik lmbt.. yeah..

besides me myself turning old.. * what i wanna called it DAMN i dont wanna get old..

but,.. *gee. i cant stop my age.. haha

i just wanna tell u all.. i'm turning 18 already.. lol..

now i'm a big guy already..

i'm going to be an adult.. an adult must think bfore acting on something.. but dang.. i love being childish.. hahaha...

okay.. i dont know ap kaitan GIF di ats... but... i like this kind of gifs'.. hahaha

hey back to the topic.. my befday.. i wanted it to be as merrier as possible..but yeah.. suddenly.. my father get sick..

but nevermind...i'm going to celebrate it .. no matter what.. hahahaha..

lastly...

greet me if u read this.. hahaha.. ta malu nak sruh org greet kan.. kah3..

keyh.. later..

bbye..

azwan ali.. :)

azwan ali..

okey.. this is azwan ali.. he's one of a kind... hahaha.. lol.. what am i saying.. okey straight to the point .. he is my besties.. he sometimes make me feel annoying with his attitude.. but though.. he is my best friend.. actually i dont need a friend that understands me or what.. ( azwan mmg ta reti na memahami org) bahahaha.. but i just need a friend that can make me feel happy.. be with me when i feel like i'm on top of the world.. and be with me when i feel so lonely.. 

actually azwan has a strange attitude.. bahaha.. he likes to make people feel guilty about their self ... in making them ( org yang rse berslh tuh) do as what he says.. hahaha... azwan sanad jhat.. 

and .. azwan ske kluar g mcd.. i dont know y.. when talking the place where we should hang out. its always be.. MCD... buahahahaha... and he always make my money run out.. but i dont mind.. well actually i do mind..hahaha tp ta ksah lah... duit tuh leyh crik kan.. hahaha.. lg pun azwan bg sy pnjam duit die en.. so sy ta brape ksh lah spending my money to him to.. but sy kne byr blik .. die ta yah.. hahaha... but i dont mind .. as long as he dont make anything that would make me feel like

then i'm okey.. LOL... well better get going now.. 

i have some work to do.. so do mind to comment azwan ali...

byee.. see ya later..

honesty

to be honest.. i just cant leave you... i just know it from the beginning .. i just knew that i cant leave you.. even you have done so many things that have hurt my feeling .. i just cant bare imagining me.. living in this world without you... i think it is a small matter for you.. ( i guess) but gee... its a totally a big matter for me.. in my mind i would say to myself..


if i could just be the most important person in your life, then oh, how happy i would be.. it cant be anybody else but you.. and if its not you.. i.. i just dont know what to do... no matter how much i hurt you.. and get hurt by you.. i find myself.. far from hating you.. actually hoping that those wounds would scar like burns.. because then can never forget me, and you will never be able to leave my side..

okey.. its always like this.. bler sms dengan ex gf...

saya : hey..

kekasih : hey..

saya : ??? 

kekasih : oh'' tengah buat ap??

saya : tngh tngk tv .. awk??

kekasih : saya tak buat ap2 pun..

saya : owh oke...

(bunyik cengkerik....................................................................)

kekasih : tengah buat ap tu??

okey takat sini.. bkn ke die dah tanye kat atas tadi???

when this happens... it very annoys me.. hello..

die msej niyh sedar ke ta.. hahaha.. tah pape kowt..  kadang2 lawak jgk.. ble jdi mcm niyh.. tapi bler dah slalu.. ap kes ...

nak sindir die.. ta smpai ati.. kekasih en.. hahaha.. nnt terasa plak..

haih cm ner nak buat niyh.. 

but i was like.. what the H... i've already told you just now.. ur asking me again..

gler ke ap...

hurmm.. mmg cm tuh ker?? org leyn pun ad mslh yang sme ker??? atoyai....

hahaha

dunia2...

love is made to be felt... love is sumthing pure.. if we treat them perfectly.. love can be sumthing evil when we dont know how to control them.. but why??? when we are in love... there so many pain than happiness.. though it is said that .. people in love feel an outstanding happiness... but why???? why most people go through into that phase??? whereas even me myself.. i dont want to go through that situation... it is painfull...
i'm in love with sumone... but its only onesided love... no matter what i do.. no matter what i say.. no matter what that person hears... it is still sumthing impossible for that person to fall in love with me... but you know what...the priviliges in being friends are we will always be with the one we love(if the person we love is our own friend)... ...
............

Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
Because I’ll be by your side
No matter when, smile! Smile!
The flower will bloom

The flower you like the most has bloomed
The flower with a small thorn bloomed this morning
I wonder if I should protect that thorn
The lone strong flower resembles you

The gentleness becomes as painful as I know
Because you and the warmth of your falling tears know

I want to see you, I want to see you
If it gets lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
Because I will be by your side
No matter when, smile! Smile!
The flower will bloom

If you send a smile to a star somewhere
Just looking up at the sky makes me happy

Even trivial things become precious to me
Because the flower that is you bloomed in my heart

I want to see you, I want to see you
If it gets as lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
I will be by your side
No matter when, smile! You can cry, because
I’m with you

If there’s no water, it will wither, so
that thorn can’t protect anything at all
It’s the lone strong flower
The thorn doesn’t hurt, so don’t cry anymore

I won’t let go of this hand, Won’t let go
If it gets as lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Even if that small thorn hurts my hand

but ever since i met you, i haven't been able to bear it anymore. my family know the bad side about me. and i can't help wondering, if maybe you would go away from me if you found out about them. i think i might do anything to stop you... i'm afraid.  i don't want to restrain you, but at the same time i want to lock you away. hurting you is the one thing i never one to do. but that's not the reality. i'd rather we parted ways now, than have you despise me and leave me behind one day, and my biggest fear is losing you.....

sometimes it is true..

sometimes its better to be wrong about your motives than to listen to the truth

- la rochefoucauld

when two people cry together for the first time... they understand how much they love each other

- emile deschamps

the greatest joy love can give you is to take your lovers hand for the first time

-stendhal

love is a sacred madness

-renaissance proverb

the moment one begins to love another, is when life really starts

-scuderi

we meet, come to know each other fall in love and part right after

this is how many sad stories evolve

-samuel taylor coleridge