okey.. its always like this.. bler sms dengan ex gf...

saya : hey..

kekasih : hey..

saya : ??? 

kekasih : oh'' tengah buat ap??

saya : tngh tngk tv .. awk??

kekasih : saya tak buat ap2 pun..

saya : owh oke...

(bunyik cengkerik....................................................................)

kekasih : tengah buat ap tu??

okey takat sini.. bkn ke die dah tanye kat atas tadi???

when this happens... it very annoys me.. hello..

die msej niyh sedar ke ta.. hahaha.. tah pape kowt..  kadang2 lawak jgk.. ble jdi mcm niyh.. tapi bler dah slalu.. ap kes ...

nak sindir die.. ta smpai ati.. kekasih en.. hahaha.. nnt terasa plak..

haih cm ner nak buat niyh.. 

but i was like.. what the H... i've already told you just now.. ur asking me again..

gler ke ap...

hurmm.. mmg cm tuh ker?? org leyn pun ad mslh yang sme ker??? atoyai....

hahaha

dunia2...

love is made to be felt... love is sumthing pure.. if we treat them perfectly.. love can be sumthing evil when we dont know how to control them.. but why??? when we are in love... there so many pain than happiness.. though it is said that .. people in love feel an outstanding happiness... but why???? why most people go through into that phase??? whereas even me myself.. i dont want to go through that situation... it is painfull...
i'm in love with sumone... but its only onesided love... no matter what i do.. no matter what i say.. no matter what that person hears... it is still sumthing impossible for that person to fall in love with me... but you know what...the priviliges in being friends are we will always be with the one we love(if the person we love is our own friend)... ...
............

Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
Because I’ll be by your side
No matter when, smile! Smile!
The flower will bloom

The flower you like the most has bloomed
The flower with a small thorn bloomed this morning
I wonder if I should protect that thorn
The lone strong flower resembles you

The gentleness becomes as painful as I know
Because you and the warmth of your falling tears know

I want to see you, I want to see you
If it gets lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
Because I will be by your side
No matter when, smile! Smile!
The flower will bloom

If you send a smile to a star somewhere
Just looking up at the sky makes me happy

Even trivial things become precious to me
Because the flower that is you bloomed in my heart

I want to see you, I want to see you
If it gets as lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Don’t let go of this hand, don’t let go
I will be by your side
No matter when, smile! You can cry, because
I’m with you

If there’s no water, it will wither, so
that thorn can’t protect anything at all
It’s the lone strong flower
The thorn doesn’t hurt, so don’t cry anymore

I won’t let go of this hand, Won’t let go
If it gets as lonely even when the two of us are together
Let’s hold hands until the loneliness disappears
Even if that small thorn hurts my hand

but ever since i met you, i haven't been able to bear it anymore. my family know the bad side about me. and i can't help wondering, if maybe you would go away from me if you found out about them. i think i might do anything to stop you... i'm afraid.  i don't want to restrain you, but at the same time i want to lock you away. hurting you is the one thing i never one to do. but that's not the reality. i'd rather we parted ways now, than have you despise me and leave me behind one day, and my biggest fear is losing you.....

sometimes it is true..

sometimes its better to be wrong about your motives than to listen to the truth

- la rochefoucauld

when two people cry together for the first time... they understand how much they love each other

- emile deschamps

the greatest joy love can give you is to take your lovers hand for the first time

-stendhal

love is a sacred madness

-renaissance proverb

the moment one begins to love another, is when life really starts

-scuderi

we meet, come to know each other fall in love and part right after

this is how many sad stories evolve

-samuel taylor coleridge

my story..

when you have loved unconditionally one girl and lost that love, it leaves a wound that never heals, a sad and broken heart, avoid forever towards her... a heart breaking isn't always as loud as abomb exploding... sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling. and the most painful thing is, no one really hears it except me.. a broken heart is a heart that has felt love and it's only happens to me... only me... 


if i should die today and the reasons remain unknown, tell not the whole world, but the one i love that i died of a broken heart, not because she love me too little but i love her too much, while being in love the are two requirements, heart breaking and healing... healing takes time, i know that... because until now i'm still trying... sometimes change is what's best, letting your heart break, and learning how to cope, but i can't... 


they say love can mend a broken heart, but how?? becuase my heart won't love when it's broken, what should i do... please tell me... my broken heart will heal after awhile,maybe... my goal is too see you and not cry but smile, someday... to prove you something... i always knew that looking back to the cries would make me laugh... but i never knew looking back to the laughs would make me cry... the problem with love is, that you can love anyone you want, but so can she... and it's not me... 


i can't seem to erase all the memories of you... no matter how hard, it's something i can't do... i don't hate you for not loving me anymore, but i hate myself for still loving you... tears are words the heart can't say and it will fall forever inside a broken heart... i'm hurt badly because of her quote..."no more mistake"... i'll make sure you'll be thinking of me.. for the rest of your life... my love was just a mistake... no one really hears it except me...

love, love , love

how should i say bout love.. love sometime makes me crazy.. yeah you know.. your lover sometimes can be so caring.. making surprises for us that we did not expect to be happening in our lives.. and sometimes they just make dumb in front of us.. like there's nothing happens.. is that love is all about.. yes.. i know.. love is not like in the comic books.. or like a fairytale story.. it always ended with this sentence " they live happily ever after" .. but in the reality.. its not like that..

for me..when i feel emotionally unsteady, even wounds that seem laughably small to other people, for me they can run quite deep.. someone once said that love really starts after you've gotten together, and i think they got it right..

the more intimately you come to know each other, the more you are at the mercy of every casual remark that comes out of their mouth.. no matter how much you love them.. they'll never be truly 100% yours.. but, even so.. i want to have my lover all to myself.. sometime the reason is so small.. as that i'd assumed that, if i were the one asking.. of course my lover would let me do it.. but it doesn't happen like that..

you love someone..so you never want to fall out of their favor.. you always want to be their number one.. there's nothing wrong with putting all your heart and effort into pleasing the person you love.. i do believe that.. but.. i know , i should just ask my lover if i'm anxious.. i could ask, "am i really somebody special to you?" , "what rank do i hold in your heart?" , not that i would ever say anything so childish..

i dont want to look bad in front of my lover.. or, do i not have the confidence to imagine what would my lover's answer would be?

is the man i'm right now someone worthy of my lover's love in the first place??